Drea Moore

12 hours in the emergancy room: [Dec 11, 2007 4:33 AM]

To anyone living around this area, I suggest if at all possible to NEVER go to upper chesapeake, this was only my second time there & again it was a horrible experience, after waiting from 3:30pm to 9:30pm because I was cramping & bleeding badly, possibly having a miscarriage- they obviously thought that wasn’t “severe” enough o.O & I thought the lady taking my vitals, drawing blood, & so on, would be more considerate & ..idk understanding as she was strapping on my “surgery” bracelet ‘just in case I was miscarrying’ when.. she told me that she herself had a miscarriage before her 1st born & that 1 out of every 3 woman miscarry & im just thinking okay, thats nice.. now can you get me the fuck back there into the actual er room not the fkn waiting room, but no.

I had to get a sonogram but since I’m only 5 weeks they couldn’t really see yet, I also had this thing shoved inside of me.. yay, which was all nice & bloody.. I tried tellin the a-holes that my fuggin shit was beyond spot bleeding which is “normal” for some, NOT all.. :sigh: then they had to do a pelvic exam.. bla bla, 15 million years later.. they said that if every thing is okay, then in 2days, my pregnancy hormones in my blood will double.. they were at 1,500.. so by thursday i have to go back & see if it’s at about 3,000.. then saturday if i’m on track at 6,000 i should be able to see/hear the babys heart on sonogram<3 but, if the bleeding & cramping continues, worsens, if the levels in my blood begin to go down instead of rise, then i’m miscarrying.

if i have a miscarriage, ill have to go through a surgury procedure & have everything remaining inside me removed, :/ please keep your fingers crossed for me [& the baby], hope seems hard right about now.. but god can make any miracle happen. but whats meant to be will, and, whatever happens.. happened for a reason.. i’m a firm believer of that. & when it’s time, it will happen :sigh: ..it takes alot to say that. but after being in the er with no food, or anything, just my baby at my side <3i love you j.. & my mommataz of course.. heh, ah how i look forward to the day of callin her granny haha :smiles:

..but yea, i’ll be ok, somehow no matter what, i’ll pull through.. i’ll keep you guys updated, in 2 days is when i have to return to the hospital to re-do my blood work, to really know whats going to happen.. :sigh: pray for me..us, love you all<3

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i lost the baby: [Dec 14, 2007 2:23 AM]
miscarriage.. last night.. back in the hospital..
have to go back.. see the ob gyn.. get surgery done..
devistation.
i dont really want to talk about it.. dont have much left to say?
so i’ll just leave it at that. :/
sorry.
bye.
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